dear you..

please bear with me.. i could not afford to lose u.. it is painful.. :(

i cant do it anymore..

seriously, x pernah rasa mcm ni and x suka rasa mcm ni,
rasa loser sgt2,..
sebab..
1. why oh why there is no guy fallen in love at their first sight with me?? really hope my bf did fall for me in that way but he said it was not, i already asked him..
2.i dont want to be such a b*****, but i hate people with pretty face (generally because i am not like them.. i am siamese, and not that attractive,.. ohmaii,...and my roomate said that she hated siamese,(a punch to my face)..
3.and feel stupid cause i tag one of my friend and my bf to my drawings, should not do that at the 1st place.being so silly.ohno, lets jump from a cliff and died then nobody will remember about ur silly mistakes cos u are already dead,..
4.i keep on hearing news that my friend are getting married and their story were awesome + romantic..screw them.. hate them for their fate.. (being a b**** once again)
5. i want a friend, pleasseee, i am begging...i need a person, who can always talk to me and be with me all the time.
6.could have done better in prosthodontics , should not aim high, cos it will make u feel so bad in the end.
7. when my bf doesn't know that i am sulking, and all i need is his attention , and he did not get it, & he just continue watching movies .. arrgghhh.....
8.a question pop in my mind = why it is so difficult to fit in? why so hard being me?why people don't understand me?

solution to the statements above  = go to bed and it will dissappear.

tidak sempurna

everyone is not perfect, Allah swt, create humans with the perfect physical appearance but not entirely perfect in the skills and attitude and etc,.. that is likely called the development of knowledge and skills which is something that we have to gain them by ourselves,..

for examples.. if you are already perfect and have all the skills in the world, wouldnt it be boring, cause, you know all the thing and there is no challenge for you to do anything.. (ayat berterabur)

but the thing is, it is actually very fun to learn something new and accept of what we are incapable of,...
okay, i may be good in art, but i am very lousy at math,.. so, math kick my ass all the time after exam in IB, but finally, i did pass the exam, and felt very satisfied about it...

see, everyone says that i am good at practical in dentistry, but how you do you know, i did spend a lot of time trying over & over again... one of my friend named liyana, she is very good at dentistry practicals, always scores the highest marks ever,.. but i did swear to myself, i want to be like her, i ll do it, i m going to do my best because, i know, i want to be a good dentist,and she is not going to be the only good dentist ever exist in our batch.. NO NO NO...

like in sports, do you know how much i struggle to jog 5 rounds per day... because i want to build my stamina to play tennis..

okay, sebenarnya, saya nak cakap saya ni x perfect tp berusaha untuk jadi berkebolehan.. kan... and sekrang saya dah penat and try to motivate myself..

major thing yg saya nak achieve sekarang,,
1. be very good in dental practicals.. beware YANA..
2.play tennis.. (yeahh)
3. be a good artist ( in drawing really want to learn more)
4. get a flawless skin,.. and be pretty (this will takes longer time). haha..

she is cute.. :)

zooey deschanel mmg tersgtlaa comel...

i really like her style, her smile and her eyes ( berangan nak jadi cntik mcm dia jugak.. tp apakan daya, hahaha)

:)

shopping then... :)

lepas gi mangalore, shopping round2 beli wedges and flats je.. pastu beli baju and shower gel bla bla...

oh,.. penat sgt kot, jln beli baju.. then i beli buku kosong and  pencils!! so happy.. :)

so, mulalah kembali kpd aktiviti lama..

menconteng,.. sorrylaa sbb saya ni x tahu basic utk melukis, shading laa, mcm2 teknik lagilaa.. just hentam je..

so, dont laugh at my picture,.. just still learning to do better .. to make the drawings look alive.. :P
berusaha!! yezzaaa.. :)

sweets.. :)

anak buah fatin (housemate)

heels nieja (rumate)

selena gomez tp x jadi laa.. worth trying.. :)

asah bakat

haha.. my best buddy for ever.. :)