lepas paper DADH

can u imagine how tired i was today? hari ni dgn rasa loya and pening, till now pun boleh rasa berat kepala, i think i need more rest.. :(

malam nih sepatutnya dah nak kena start study for the first block, pfft,.. because i am not well, semuanya tergendala. :(... tp sekarang, teringin pulak nak makan ais krim... kalaulaa ada motor, boleh je terus gi baskin robbin.. bestnya..,...

tapi kena semangat laa sekarang nih, so that the headache does'nt control me.... if not i'll be lying in bed all the time..

drink a lot of water but then toilet toilet toilet toilet..... :P

let's hijrah...

i don't know why but i had a bad feeling about myself, i think i have committed lots of sin.really have to go back to the right path,.. please guide me my Lord...

feeling so weak and hungry, i think i should stop eating for a while and start fasting..

my schedule are really bad, sleep at 3 pm,and in the evening, ya Allah, this is so not good for myself...

really have to correct my biological clock from now on and arrange my studies properly..

and now i am having a big headache, really want to bang my head to the wall... :D..

okay,.. lets start working, dental anatomy and physiology paper is coming this wednesday...

outlandish.. :)

i really love music,one of my favorite group singer is outlandish.....so , i google...and found a little bit information about them in wikipedia... :D


Outlandish is a multi-award winning hip-hop group based in Denmark. Formed in 1997, it consists of Isam Bachiri (born in Denmark and of Moroccan background), Waqas Ali Qadri (born in Denmark and of Pakistani background), and Lenny Martinez (born in Honduras and is of Cuban and Honduran descent). All three members are devoutly religious, Isam and Waqas being Muslims, and Lenny being Catholic. The band members live in Brøndby Strand.


most of their songs have their own meanings which requires us to think...cool right??.. that is what i feel about Outlandish..
isam bachiri's voice is awesome!! 

and one of the songs that i like from them is FEELS LIKE SAVING THE WORLD,cause it is catchy.. :)

guilty...

i am happy today, quite okay, the exam paper for physiology is easy, :D, both objective and essay paper, that's the big reason ,why i can't stop smiling today...

then i went to scirocco for lunch, i ate a creamy chicken spaghetti, burp.. alhamdulillah.. :), but on the way back to IH (my hostel) i stop by the akka sonia shop to buy a tumbler, then i saw a small thin cat..
she is so thin and weak and she sit beside my feet and start 'meowing', i become numb, i can feel how lonely and hungry she is, i want to take her home if i could, but the problem is the hostel, i am not allowed to bring any kind of pet into the hostel

i felt so guilty leaving her alone... sigh...
i think the best thing that i can do is feed her,... :)




p/s : please ignore the previous post about emo and upset... it is so childish..

upset,emo

i don't think all of them read my blog.
but the purpose of doing this blog is to let them know how i was doing here, whether i am okay or not,...

now, i do cried in front of my laptop many times,...

sometimes i do feel that i want to choke myself to death..

i am not happy, yes i am not happy with myself,

i don't know why....

my hands are shaking, tomorrow i have exams,

just want to let them know about the paper for tomorrow,

just want to let them know, about the anatomy paper yesterday

that's all... :(

healing by sami yusuf

currently listening to sami yusuf, healing,
it really make myself calm, and his voice is amazingly beautiful, make me want to cry everytime i listen to this song, and i really love the outro part,

the lyrics

It's so hard to explain
What I'm feeling
But I guess it's ok
Cause I'll keep believing
There's something deep inside
Something that's calling
It's calling you and I
It's taking us up high

CHORUS:

Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
A smile can change a life let's start believing
And feeling, let's start healing

VERSE 2:
Heal and you will be healing
Break every border
Give and you will receive
It's Nature's order
There is a hidden force
Pulling us closer
It's pulling you and I
It's pulling us up high

CHORUS:

Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
A Smile can change a life let's start believing
And feeling, let's start healing

MIDDLE 8:

Hearts in the hand of another heart and in God's hand are all hearts
An eye takes care of another eye and from God's eye nothing hides
Seek only to give and you'll receive
So, heal and you will be healed

OUTRO (x2): 

قلب بين يدي قلب و بيد الله كل قلب

عين ترعى عينا، وعين الله ترعى

كلمة طيبة صدقة

تبسمك لأخيك صدقه

كل معروف صدقة

اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً 

hungry and tired

bukannya nak mengeluh tapi saya dah penat sekarang, rasa macam nak balik malaysia sekarang, tersangatlaa homesick,...

university exams, block exams, are really driving me crazy, byknya bnda yang nak cover tapi x tercover, please, biarlaa exams ni berlalu dengan cepatnya and saya lulus.. :)

seriously, bosan sangat kat india nih

tapi nasib baik ada ramai malaysians kat sini, kalau macam students kat jepun , US, europe, mesti lagi merana, :D...

nak imaginary friend macam hobbes :)

changes to my teeth....

maybe all of you think or feel that this is 'yuck' but i want to show it anyway...  :D...

it start from green cast, then the changes of my teeth is from the bottom right picture, then to the uppermost picture...p/s the half face is for showing the changes to my smile and to my face overall, but since i'm a very shy person, so i crop my face into half... hehe.. :)

i am not satisfied with the picture above cause it is not big enough, and if you have any idea on how to make it big, please tell me... :)

last class for 1st year

hello once again,

hari selasa bersamaan 21 Jun 2011,
hari last for first year BDS, it ends with anatomy class, ( development of salivary glands ) kelas ambil masa 30 minit je, hahaha...best2, dr swamy ravindra mengajar dgn penuh semangat. :P
(p/s: igtkan mggu lepas kelas dah abes)

kejap saja, pejam celik, dah nak dekat setahun menetap kat Yindia nih,
perasaan saya : takut nak hadapi university exam,... kalau x lepas, boleh repeat tp sampai 3 kali sahaja, lebih drpd tu, sorry, kicked out from medical school...cuak habes...

before balik, sempat lagi pergi ambil articulator dengan cast, hehe, bawa balik, sebab kalau tinggal dalam locker, habes cast tu ada moss and fungus, eeuww, geli.. so bawa balik letak dalam beg, beg pun cam kembung semacam, tapi, apa saya kesah, layan je...

pegi kedai, beli buku sikit, pen, bayar bil internet,.. :D

pastu gi makan kat foodcourt, x ramai orang, tapi makanan pun ala kadar saja,..

lastly sampai bilik, bukak beg,

YA ALLAH... habes cast saya, distorted sudeyh, tulaa sapa suh ganas sgt, letak dalam beg pulak..
beg kotor dgn dental plaster, modellling wax kaler merah tu habes jadi putih, aisey... pastu cuci laa balik cast tu, ceh, buang masa ja.. nasib baiklaa jadi ok dah, kalau x, nangis jelaa, dahlaa lecturer x evaluate lagi..pehh...

nilaa articulator and cast yang saya cakap tu...
ni one of the proses untuk buat gigi palsu, lepas ni boleh susun gigi kat wax kaler merah tu.. :)
ingatkan senang saja untuk buat gigi palsu, rupanya tak... hihi, tapi boleh dikatakan enjoy laa jugak buat kerja nih,... :)

its friday!!

usually after class i will go back to my hostel and rest ( take a nap until 1 pm ), but today, instead of sleeping in my room, i have to pay the exam fees at the ICICI bank,,.. :(, but alhamdulillah, the process does not take time too long,
so, i went to gift shop nearby to find something for myself, basically a friend to accompanied me in my room.. haha,


all the soft toys are way too expensive for me,small tiger costs rs 800,which is ridiculous !, it is not big and not fluffy, come on laa boss!! mehenga!!, i definitely won't buy it...


so i went to another gift shop nearby, there is a big fluffy teddy bear with skirt, so CUTE, and it got the same price with the tiger at another shop, but suddenly i saw a very small brownish creature on the display,... 


so here it goes!! tadaaaa, meet miss polka, i bought her from that shop, she is soo plump for a rabbit and cute enough to melt my heart,, hahaha...  

                                                                   meet miss polka.. :) 

GIGI GERAHAM PERTAMA RAHANG ATAS...

peliknya bila translate kan maxillary 1st molar,.. hahaha,tadi baru habis kelas carving, fuh, mencabar nak buat bentuk gigi tu siap dengan surfacenya yang berlekuk lekuk, tapi akhirnya lecturer bagi lepas, and dia bagi gred A utk gigi tu,.. WAAAHHHHAAAAHAAAA, happy nya saya,smile sampai nampak 2nd molar atas, hahhaha, alhamdulillah, carving agak menjadi hari ni,...

my maxillary first molar tooth

sebenarnya hari ni rasa penat sikit, sebab semalam, buat poster sampai pkl 3 pagi, and it turns out to be nice and semua org suka dengan poster, dah hanta kat dr bharath tp x tau laa dia kata okay ke x.. tp apa2 pun kalau ditegur and diubah lagi bagus, sebab boleh improve kan utk jadi lagi cantik,.. :)

pagi tadi belajar pasal HEART, structure dia okay, sangat amazing, dengan muscle yang sangat cool and bulky, :D, so excited to see the internal structure,.... teringat waktu belajar kat sekolah menengah in biology, nampak macam simple saja organ jantung nih, tapi padahal, Subhanallah, bila tengok depan mata, x sangka a fist size structure, boleh pump blood dgn sangat efficiently.

Bila belajar psl anatomy heart tu x adalah complicated sgt, tapi blood vessels yang supply heart tu lagi complicated.. :D and 1 more thing, surgery utk patient jantung berlubang adalah surgery yang paling simple bagi cardiac surgeon.okay, tu saja nak ckp utk hari ni..

today everything went smoothly and fine for me.. :) Alhamdulillah... :D 

:(

semalam tidur awal, x tahu laa pulak diorg nak buat group discussion utk msp, diorg ada call tp wktu tu dah tidur, sebab mengantuk sangat,. :(, dahlaa x baca lagi,down....

diorang cakap diorg dah announce dalam kelas carving, tapi kenapa x dgr pun, x tahu pun ada perjumpaan, maybe waktu dia announce tu, saya gi jumpa dr bharath....maybe its my fault.

tadi wktu berjalan balik, terserempak dgn dr (x mahu sebut nama).... yg buat treatment utk braces nih, senyum kat dia and dia buat2 x nampak je, ... hmm , dr sachin lagi bagus, at least dia senyum balik bila dia tgk patients dia.. fine,,,

okeylaa tu laa entry hari nih, wish me luck for the physio test kejap lagi...

and the whole day my face look like this.....

papadi chat

semua org mesti wonder papdi chat tu apa kan? kan?,

okay let me explain, papdi chat is a north indian fast food.

Chaat word which literally means lick, is used to describe a range of snacks and papri refers to crispy fried dough wafers (cam ala2 keropok ). In Papri Chaat, the papris are served with boiled potatoes, boiled chick peas, chilles, yoghurt and chutney and topped with chaat masala and 'sev'.

rasa nya masam + manis + pedas + berangin +crunchy = sedap...

chutney tu kaler hijau rasa pedas2 sikit ...yoghurt masam tapi sedap, berangin  tu sebab ada mints leaves, and crunchy tu of course papri..... 

sebenarnya this one thing that i like about india,its food!!  papdi chat is delicious ( serious drooling) hihi...

pg tadi berkesempatan pegi foodcourt  makan papdi/papri chaat dengan farah.. :) really happy sebab dah berminggu minggu kempunan, x ramai org suka makanan india nih, especially yang ada rasa masam2 tu, x tahu laa kenapa tapi yang penting saya suka.. harhar... kalau balik malaysia mesti rindu makanan ni nanti.. :(

 loves the yoghurts flooding in the plate.. :D

yem yes p.. MSP

yes , MSP, it stands for mentor student project,...

now, all bds students are pre occupied with these project, so many things to do..
we need to do research about our topic ( which are given by the faculty ),
my group topics are DEVELOPMENTAL ANOMALIES OF TEETH,
very wide and complicated topics, we have to make an e poster, which is going to be projected to the screen and present about it in front of the deans of our faculty and in front of the dean of  MCODS, soo scared maaa...

now, my group are done with the book, but unfortunately we have problems with our e poster, and the worst part of it, i am in charge with the poster... :(, BUT NO WORRIES, i m going to do it,... at least i tried... about the presentation hentam sajalaaa, i always screw up in front of people, (ada saya kisah kalau nak malukan diri sendiri).. ..

apa 2 ajalaa kan, best of luck to myself.. :) and my friends too  for mocking presentation tomorrow..

nak ais cream, :(

obviously saya sgt sedih sekarang,
banyak kerja nak buat,
kadang2 terfikir, nak kena sacrifice banyak bila nak jadi doktor nih, nak fikir pasal perasaaan sediri pun x sempat....but how? sekarang pun saya dah emo terlebih, terasa macam nak makan ais krim (mcm x ada kaitan saja dengan post di atas)

ada siapa2 nak teman utk mkn ais krim x?,seriously, saya belanja.. :(
of course laa x ada, sebab its raining heavily outside, semua org malas nak keluar.. :(


 
KEMPUNAN laa lagi, jum gi lari dari manipal pastu kena telan dgn batu cm crita dongeng ikan tembakul tu... hahaha