today class... is not really good... this is the disadvantage of sharing the class with the juniors,my mistake is spotted and wallaaah... in a few seconds, everybody knew, and i can feel that my body is shrinking that time... feel embarassed, and angry at the same time, my face , it looks that i m going to cry,...
and i feel like crying, it is just that, no tears coming out, public humiliation, it happens once again, the last time that it happened is when i got bullied by seniors during secondary school... where i felt totally hopeless watching everyone talking and laughing about my stupidity, and gain less respect from others..it looks like it is going to happen once again, where juniors will look at me , like i was hopeless and a stupid senior, although the only 'respect' that i have gain is the invisibility,.. where nobody realize that i come from the same college as they are..
i am down right now,.. i need motivation,..
reminder for me,,
1. don't give a damn about juniors, it is not that they will not do any mistake in future..
2.so what? if you are invisible, it is for your own good, you are free to commit any mistakes, remember, the more mistake you did, the more you will gain...
3. people who laugh at you is not perfect, and they are not saint,... what goes around will comes around..
4.take this as a lesson, do not repeat the same mistake in the future..
5. you are not stupid, you are just smart and beautiful in your own way..
6.you re not hopeless, you were strong!! that is why god is testing your confidence and iman this way..
7.things happen for a reason,...the reason might not come right away after you identified your mistakes
8. lastly smile, it is not the end of the world. :):)))))
remember, don't feel unhappy because of these little things..smile and please bring back the cheerful afifah,.. don't just give away your happy'self,just because of this unworthy pathetic thoughts.....
and i feel like crying, it is just that, no tears coming out, public humiliation, it happens once again, the last time that it happened is when i got bullied by seniors during secondary school... where i felt totally hopeless watching everyone talking and laughing about my stupidity, and gain less respect from others..it looks like it is going to happen once again, where juniors will look at me , like i was hopeless and a stupid senior, although the only 'respect' that i have gain is the invisibility,.. where nobody realize that i come from the same college as they are..
i am down right now,.. i need motivation,..
reminder for me,,
1. don't give a damn about juniors, it is not that they will not do any mistake in future..
2.so what? if you are invisible, it is for your own good, you are free to commit any mistakes, remember, the more mistake you did, the more you will gain...
3. people who laugh at you is not perfect, and they are not saint,... what goes around will comes around..
4.take this as a lesson, do not repeat the same mistake in the future..
5. you are not stupid, you are just smart and beautiful in your own way..
6.you re not hopeless, you were strong!! that is why god is testing your confidence and iman this way..
7.things happen for a reason,...the reason might not come right away after you identified your mistakes
8. lastly smile, it is not the end of the world. :):)))))
remember, don't feel unhappy because of these little things..smile and please bring back the cheerful afifah,.. don't just give away your happy'self,just because of this unworthy pathetic thoughts.....
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