Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
i cant do it anymore..
seriously, x pernah rasa mcm ni and x suka rasa mcm ni,
rasa loser sgt2,..
sebab..
1. why oh why there is no guy fallen in love at their first sight with me?? really hope my bf did fall for me in that way but he said it was not, i already asked him..
2.i dont want to be such a b*****, but i hate people with pretty face (generally because i am not like them.. i am siamese, and not that attractive,.. ohmaii,...and my roomate said that she hated siamese,(a punch to my face)..
3.and feel stupid cause i tag one of my friend and my bf to my drawings, should not do that at the 1st place.being so silly.ohno, lets jump from a cliff and died then nobody will remember about ur silly mistakes cos u are already dead,..
4.i keep on hearing news that my friend are getting married and their story were awesome + romantic..screw them.. hate them for their fate.. (being a b**** once again)
5. i want a friend, pleasseee, i am begging...i need a person, who can always talk to me and be with me all the time.
6.could have done better in prosthodontics , should not aim high, cos it will make u feel so bad in the end.
7. when my bf doesn't know that i am sulking, and all i need is his attention , and he did not get it, & he just continue watching movies .. arrgghhh.....
8.a question pop in my mind = why it is so difficult to fit in? why so hard being me?why people don't understand me?
solution to the statements above = go to bed and it will dissappear.
rasa loser sgt2,..
sebab..
1. why oh why there is no guy fallen in love at their first sight with me?? really hope my bf did fall for me in that way but he said it was not, i already asked him..
2.i dont want to be such a b*****, but i hate people with pretty face (generally because i am not like them.. i am siamese, and not that attractive,.. ohmaii,...and my roomate said that she hated siamese,(a punch to my face)..
3.and feel stupid cause i tag one of my friend and my bf to my drawings, should not do that at the 1st place.being so silly.ohno, lets jump from a cliff and died then nobody will remember about ur silly mistakes cos u are already dead,..
4.i keep on hearing news that my friend are getting married and their story were awesome + romantic..screw them.. hate them for their fate.. (being a b**** once again)
5. i want a friend, pleasseee, i am begging...i need a person, who can always talk to me and be with me all the time.
6.could have done better in prosthodontics , should not aim high, cos it will make u feel so bad in the end.
7. when my bf doesn't know that i am sulking, and all i need is his attention , and he did not get it, & he just continue watching movies .. arrgghhh.....
8.a question pop in my mind = why it is so difficult to fit in? why so hard being me?why people don't understand me?
solution to the statements above = go to bed and it will dissappear.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
tidak sempurna
everyone is not perfect, Allah swt, create humans with the perfect physical appearance but not entirely perfect in the skills and attitude and etc,.. that is likely called the development of knowledge and skills which is something that we have to gain them by ourselves,..
for examples.. if you are already perfect and have all the skills in the world, wouldnt it be boring, cause, you know all the thing and there is no challenge for you to do anything.. (ayat berterabur)
but the thing is, it is actually very fun to learn something new and accept of what we are incapable of,...
okay, i may be good in art, but i am very lousy at math,.. so, math kick my ass all the time after exam in IB, but finally, i did pass the exam, and felt very satisfied about it...
see, everyone says that i am good at practical in dentistry, but how you do you know, i did spend a lot of time trying over & over again... one of my friend named liyana, she is very good at dentistry practicals, always scores the highest marks ever,.. but i did swear to myself, i want to be like her, i ll do it, i m going to do my best because, i know, i want to be a good dentist,and she is not going to be the only good dentist ever exist in our batch.. NO NO NO...
like in sports, do you know how much i struggle to jog 5 rounds per day... because i want to build my stamina to play tennis..
okay, sebenarnya, saya nak cakap saya ni x perfect tp berusaha untuk jadi berkebolehan.. kan... and sekrang saya dah penat and try to motivate myself..
major thing yg saya nak achieve sekarang,,
1. be very good in dental practicals.. beware YANA..
2.play tennis.. (yeahh)
3. be a good artist ( in drawing really want to learn more)
4. get a flawless skin,.. and be pretty (this will takes longer time). haha..
for examples.. if you are already perfect and have all the skills in the world, wouldnt it be boring, cause, you know all the thing and there is no challenge for you to do anything.. (ayat berterabur)
but the thing is, it is actually very fun to learn something new and accept of what we are incapable of,...
okay, i may be good in art, but i am very lousy at math,.. so, math kick my ass all the time after exam in IB, but finally, i did pass the exam, and felt very satisfied about it...
see, everyone says that i am good at practical in dentistry, but how you do you know, i did spend a lot of time trying over & over again... one of my friend named liyana, she is very good at dentistry practicals, always scores the highest marks ever,.. but i did swear to myself, i want to be like her, i ll do it, i m going to do my best because, i know, i want to be a good dentist,and she is not going to be the only good dentist ever exist in our batch.. NO NO NO...
like in sports, do you know how much i struggle to jog 5 rounds per day... because i want to build my stamina to play tennis..
okay, sebenarnya, saya nak cakap saya ni x perfect tp berusaha untuk jadi berkebolehan.. kan... and sekrang saya dah penat and try to motivate myself..
major thing yg saya nak achieve sekarang,,
1. be very good in dental practicals.. beware YANA..
2.play tennis.. (yeahh)
3. be a good artist ( in drawing really want to learn more)
4. get a flawless skin,.. and be pretty (this will takes longer time). haha..
Thursday, December 8, 2011
she is cute.. :)
zooey deschanel mmg tersgtlaa comel...
i really like her style, her smile and her eyes ( berangan nak jadi cntik mcm dia jugak.. tp apakan daya, hahaha)
i really like her style, her smile and her eyes ( berangan nak jadi cntik mcm dia jugak.. tp apakan daya, hahaha)
:)
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
shopping then... :)
lepas gi mangalore, shopping round2 beli wedges and flats je.. pastu beli baju and shower gel bla bla...
oh,.. penat sgt kot, jln beli baju.. then i beli buku kosong and pencils!! so happy.. :)
so, mulalah kembali kpd aktiviti lama..
menconteng,.. sorrylaa sbb saya ni x tahu basic utk melukis, shading laa, mcm2 teknik lagilaa.. just hentam je..
so, dont laugh at my picture,.. just still learning to do better .. to make the drawings look alive.. :P
berusaha!! yezzaaa.. :)
oh,.. penat sgt kot, jln beli baju.. then i beli buku kosong and pencils!! so happy.. :)
so, mulalah kembali kpd aktiviti lama..
menconteng,.. sorrylaa sbb saya ni x tahu basic utk melukis, shading laa, mcm2 teknik lagilaa.. just hentam je..
so, dont laugh at my picture,.. just still learning to do better .. to make the drawings look alive.. :P
berusaha!! yezzaaa.. :)
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| sweets.. :) |
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| anak buah fatin (housemate) |
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| heels nieja (rumate) |
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| selena gomez tp x jadi laa.. worth trying.. :) |
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
cewi.. hihihi
tau x maksud cewi (lebih kurang sebutan 'e' mcm cek) tu apa?, dlm loghat kelantan bermaksud kanak2 perempuan tp kalau dlm loghat kedah,.. cewi tu maksudnya syg ngan brg baru....
hihi, oleh sbb saya org kedah, so, mksdnya saya mmg tgh sayang dgn barang baru saya...
meh nak tunjuk....
jeng jeng jeng.. ~
TARAAAAA!!!
esok insya Allah boleh turun main,.. yezzzaaa!!
hihi, oleh sbb saya org kedah, so, mksdnya saya mmg tgh sayang dgn barang baru saya...
meh nak tunjuk....
jeng jeng jeng.. ~
TARAAAAA!!!
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| my first tennis racquet.. weewiitt |
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| cewi... haha |
dah try bounce bola tadi, ternyata, tension of the string tu x keras sgt.. thank you abah!!
grip dia kecik, cukup2 ngan my hand... and the weight is totally ringan giler.. hehehe, jgn jeles..
yea2 x sabar nak tggu esok.. :)
okay so sorry sbb kegedikans terserlah di sini.. huhu
Friday, November 25, 2011
1st block of 2nd year
seriously, 2nd year susah giloss!! nak nangis dibuatnya after paper pharmacology...
soalannya berbunyi.. prescribe a 30 year old women with cellulitis,prescribe a 35 year old man with acute pulpitis,.. prescribe a mouthwash for a 30 year old man,.. hadoi.. okay, nama ubat tu mmg ingat, tp dose? how much? in tablet in ampule in capsule? which one?? 400mg or 200 mg or 500mg..instruction, at what time & how many tablet to be taken and how many times? okay dah confuse..
dlm mouthwash tu ada apa? astringent, antiseptic, ?? :(..
teringat wktu 1st year yg sgt best, bru je 1st block exam pun, alhamdulillah, semua okay, smpai end of 1st year, msuk 2nd year, mmg laa rasa mcm nak meninggal pun ada..(okay x logik bila ckp rasa mcm nak meninggal sbb dah ada dentist dlm dunia ni, so of course diorg survive... :P),,..
okay , 2nd block mmg kena blajar and prepare betul2, chaiyok!! ubat ubatan tu mmg dh nak kena prepare its comparisons and nama ubat2 tu mmg kena hafal,.. microb, got to say this but i really HATE microbe, it is supposed to be interesting, tp tp. err... xpun...
pathology belajar psl penyakit2 yg wujud dlm dunia nih,.. haishh, nmpak je cm sikit tp x, and susah nak dpt markah eventhough you write everything in the exam.. ,
lastly, dental material and conservative dentistry? okay inilaa saja favouriye subjek saya buat masa ni,.. i prefer dental nye subjek.... practical sgt mnyusahkan tp saya suka buat... :D :D ;D
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
LONER..
TIAP HARI MCM NI, OKAY I ADMIT, I AM A LONER,..
FINE IF YOU WANT TO NEGLECT ME, JUST FINE,..
I AM STILL STANDING HERE,.. ALONE..
ALONE... :(...tears are rolling down my cheeks...
okay, rite now, you better LEAVE ME ALONE..
bila saya senang semua org datang, tp bila susah cmni, semua org hilang....
fine,.. i am just fine..
FINE IF YOU WANT TO NEGLECT ME, JUST FINE,..
I AM STILL STANDING HERE,.. ALONE..
ALONE... :(...tears are rolling down my cheeks...
okay, rite now, you better LEAVE ME ALONE..
bila saya senang semua org datang, tp bila susah cmni, semua org hilang....
fine,.. i am just fine..
Friday, November 18, 2011
i am blur today..
seriously hari ni asyik jln ke hulu hilir and i could not think of anything, bila dah smpai kat dapur, wonder pulak nak buat apa,.. sigh..
then i go back to my laptop and start to write this entry..
so sorry, i'am really not in a good mood,it's okay, i don't expecting anyone to care or to understand,cause i don't think that anyone could understand me,..maybe i m too complicated (haha, laugh with a plain facial expression)..
done with microb test, as usual, i screwed up, i don't want to talk about it,..
talk about them them them,.. oh crap....
still thinking about them,,.. oh sh**..
okay, i think i better start jogging this evening,..
thinking of deleting of my family members from my facebook account,.. now i feel that i hate them so much,.. good idea....
don't disturb me, cause i may explode...
okay, maybe saya ada masalah mental... ntahlaa, ikut sukalaa u nak tafsirkan cemana... UP TO YOU!..
then i go back to my laptop and start to write this entry..
so sorry, i'am really not in a good mood,it's okay, i don't expecting anyone to care or to understand,cause i don't think that anyone could understand me,..maybe i m too complicated (haha, laugh with a plain facial expression)..
done with microb test, as usual, i screwed up, i don't want to talk about it,..
talk about them them them,.. oh crap....
still thinking about them,,.. oh sh**..
okay, i think i better start jogging this evening,..
thinking of deleting of my family members from my facebook account,.. now i feel that i hate them so much,.. good idea....
don't disturb me, cause i may explode...
okay, maybe saya ada masalah mental... ntahlaa, ikut sukalaa u nak tafsirkan cemana... UP TO YOU!..
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Futsal match
Bds smmgnya batch yg x reti nak main futsal., berlatih pun 3 Kali sja., dahlaa x pernah main, mmg cuaklaa sgt2.. Batch yg plg hebat. Is batch 26,batch 27 & 25 boleh tahan hebat.. Alhamdulillah, last match ngan batch 27, kitorg berjaya kalahkan batch 27, 2-0.,, both goal is scored by me.. Hehe, rasa cm hebat jap,.. Tp main kalah mati, x aci sbb mula2 batch 26 Lwn ngan bds, nasib baiklaa x kalah teruk, 1-0 sja, then lwn ngan batch 25, 0-0, pastu tu dah x lrat nak main.. Siap terjatuh,koyak seluar kat lutut, seb bek x Luka.. Lastly bru lwn ngan batch 27... Happylaa jugak, jadik striker kerja naik atas turun bwh..kejar bola, penat sungguh.. Tp overall okeylaa.. :)Nanti I postkan gmbr futsal ye.. Tp maaflaa.. saya ni bukannya cntik mana pun, so terimalaa seadanya.. Okay, mcm x kena dgn post ni.. Haha, x apa, I need to study today.. Esok Ada test..
Friday, November 11, 2011
competency test.
so, competency test ni is a practical test, where we have to prepare a cavity on a plaster model.
plaster model tu bentuk mcm gigi, and it is chalky..
pernah dgr x psl tampal gigi? pernah x korang kena tampal gigi ?( ehem, saya sbnrnya x pernah),
well, kami, bds student tgh berlatih and belajar mcm mana nak buat tampalan on a tooth, firstly, belajar mcm mana nak korek gigi ikut bentuk yg dikehendaki, and belajar how to preserve tooth structure....
so hari ni ada test psl nak buat bentuk tampalan gigi, nampak mcm senang tp, semuanya depends on the plaster model tu, hari dapat yg keras sikit so, lenguhlaaa tgn ceq ni nak korek plaster tu, ciss...
punyalaaa struggle korek and ratakan semua surface, lastly alhamdulillah.. i finished them..x adalaa perfect, tp okaylaa..for 2 hours, sitting on a high chair and doing our work on a quite low table, sakit tulang belakang, sbb khusyuk menfokus kat areas yg sgt halus tu, al maklumlaa lecturer yg melampau perfectionist,.. i pernah dapat A for few times je, tu pun kira bersyukur, ada jugak org lain yg x pernah dpt A lgsg,.. kedekutnyaa lecturer.. hehe..
here are few pictures about it.. :)
plaster model tu bentuk mcm gigi, and it is chalky..
pernah dgr x psl tampal gigi? pernah x korang kena tampal gigi ?( ehem, saya sbnrnya x pernah),
well, kami, bds student tgh berlatih and belajar mcm mana nak buat tampalan on a tooth, firstly, belajar mcm mana nak korek gigi ikut bentuk yg dikehendaki, and belajar how to preserve tooth structure....
so hari ni ada test psl nak buat bentuk tampalan gigi, nampak mcm senang tp, semuanya depends on the plaster model tu, hari dapat yg keras sikit so, lenguhlaaa tgn ceq ni nak korek plaster tu, ciss...
punyalaaa struggle korek and ratakan semua surface, lastly alhamdulillah.. i finished them..x adalaa perfect, tp okaylaa..for 2 hours, sitting on a high chair and doing our work on a quite low table, sakit tulang belakang, sbb khusyuk menfokus kat areas yg sgt halus tu, al maklumlaa lecturer yg melampau perfectionist,.. i pernah dapat A for few times je, tu pun kira bersyukur, ada jugak org lain yg x pernah dpt A lgsg,.. kedekutnyaa lecturer.. hehe..
here are few pictures about it.. :)
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| plaster model with class 2 mesio occlusal cavity.. |
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| being filled with wax,.. ala2 tampal gigi.. |
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Kecewa
Pg ni bgn lambat, semua sbb tunggu my hosmet balik semalam... Lastly I tertido sndiri pkl 3 pg, I am so sad actually, x Ada housmate and myself sbnrnya lemah smngt.. I could not sleep alone. At least kena Ada seseorg dlm rumah ni.. Kaki dah byk lebam dah.. And I had dreams involving bnda2 cmtu...
Pg ni x smpat smyg raya, my housemate blik kol 7 lebih, mmg rasa cm nak nangis.. Lastly I decide xnak gi mana2..sbb rasa kecewa sgt..:(
tggu mssge from someone pun blum dpt lg.,, sometimes I think better I don't have friends at all drpd ada., and better x Ada bf sbb lastly diri sndiri yg frust..
My housemate x Ada for a few days, ajak kwn2 yg Len tmnkn sorg pun tak nak..diorg suruh pgi rumah diorg.. Pdhl tmpat tido kan x cukup.. Tp I pergi jugak untk 2 mlm, and untuk mlm ketiga I wait for my housemate utk balik tp dia smpai sgt lmbt..
Tak apalaa kan mgkn saya ni x fun or kalau org lain kwn dgn saya pun x dpt apa2 advantage,
I just wish if inception tu wujud where I can just live in my own world..
Pg ni x smpat smyg raya, my housemate blik kol 7 lebih, mmg rasa cm nak nangis.. Lastly I decide xnak gi mana2..sbb rasa kecewa sgt..:(
tggu mssge from someone pun blum dpt lg.,, sometimes I think better I don't have friends at all drpd ada., and better x Ada bf sbb lastly diri sndiri yg frust..
My housemate x Ada for a few days, ajak kwn2 yg Len tmnkn sorg pun tak nak..diorg suruh pgi rumah diorg.. Pdhl tmpat tido kan x cukup.. Tp I pergi jugak untk 2 mlm, and untuk mlm ketiga I wait for my housemate utk balik tp dia smpai sgt lmbt..
Tak apalaa kan mgkn saya ni x fun or kalau org lain kwn dgn saya pun x dpt apa2 advantage,
I just wish if inception tu wujud where I can just live in my own world..
annoying posts...
SHE : location : manipal foodcourt - org d meja depan mkn smbil suap2, meja kiri mkn + bgosip, meja kanan mkn ngn couple meja aku?? Mkn sorg bsama2 hp.. :P
well.... merujuk kpd perkara di atas...one of my friend complaining that she is eating alone. in the food court... so then i replied to her,
ME : aku mkn depan laptop je...
it is kind of annoying hearing her complaining that she doesnt have a bf blah blah...okeylaa kalau x pernah ada langsung, tp dulu pernah ada kan...?
i just somehow wish that i could replied to her, HONEY WHY U SOUND SO DESPERATE ??
okay, blame me for being a jerk but after that, she post another one.. also sound so desperate to me..come on girls, u got to be strong, u don't need a boyfriend.. u just have to stand on your own...
SHE : knp kita xde bf??? Bkn sbb x hot tp kita terlalu hot smpi org d lua sna tkot nk dkt. Haha tgu 11.11.11 ok???
once again, i just wish i could replied, hey, i also have bf, but everyday i eat alone, sitting in front of laptop, x de keluar and makan sama2 pun..nak pergi mkn aiskrim pun x ada org nak teman, even kawan prmpuan,..
nak pergi beli raket tennis pun x ada org nak teman and tlg pilihkan,... at least you have a friend named leman...
and you said you are forever alone... WHAT???
hey you, ramai org leave me all the time, i x ada kwn, pergi situ sana sini pun ngan kwn prmpuan..nak ajak makan pun diorg tak nak keluar.. see that? why you didn't feel grateful at all? u have a LOT of friend, girl, use them to accompany you..
okay, sbnrnya, i am also alone all the time, but still, whining in fb, will not change anything about it..u still alone! get it...
p/s ; u may dislike after this but i don't care, this is what i feel... :D
well.... merujuk kpd perkara di atas...one of my friend complaining that she is eating alone. in the food court... so then i replied to her,
ME : aku mkn depan laptop je...
it is kind of annoying hearing her complaining that she doesnt have a bf blah blah...okeylaa kalau x pernah ada langsung, tp dulu pernah ada kan...?
i just somehow wish that i could replied to her, HONEY WHY U SOUND SO DESPERATE ??
okay, blame me for being a jerk but after that, she post another one.. also sound so desperate to me..come on girls, u got to be strong, u don't need a boyfriend.. u just have to stand on your own...
SHE : knp kita xde bf??? Bkn sbb x hot tp kita terlalu hot smpi org d lua sna tkot nk dkt. Haha tgu 11.11.11 ok???
once again, i just wish i could replied, hey, i also have bf, but everyday i eat alone, sitting in front of laptop, x de keluar and makan sama2 pun..nak pergi mkn aiskrim pun x ada org nak teman, even kawan prmpuan,..
nak pergi beli raket tennis pun x ada org nak teman and tlg pilihkan,... at least you have a friend named leman...
and you said you are forever alone... WHAT???
hey you, ramai org leave me all the time, i x ada kwn, pergi situ sana sini pun ngan kwn prmpuan..nak ajak makan pun diorg tak nak keluar.. see that? why you didn't feel grateful at all? u have a LOT of friend, girl, use them to accompany you..
okay, sbnrnya, i am also alone all the time, but still, whining in fb, will not change anything about it..u still alone! get it...
p/s ; u may dislike after this but i don't care, this is what i feel... :D
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
kaoppu beach..
semalam dah sedih2 sebab sakit gigi,.. hehe,. trima kasih pd org yg layan saya bebel malam tadi..
so pagi ni pergi ke beach, ngan kakak usrah,, yeaahhaaa...
makan2, borak, mandi laut, naik bumpy pelampung (seriously mmg terlompat2 atas pelampung tu) and banana boat..
naik banana boat org tempe tu ckp yg ringan duk depan, cess mcm biasalaa ceteka sapa yg kena duk dpn....it's me... mcm nak terpelanting... pastu skli tempe tu pusingkan boat yg bawak banana boat tu,... org depanlaa yg terpelanting jauh from the others...xsuka2.... sbbnya air yg sgt masin, cm dah lemas... and saya panik..its like..waaarrggghhhh.!! x leh pijak something, i m going to drown... seriously nak nangis... pastu tempe tu ckp just relax2...
a few minutes later,.. mmg saya x leh rilek.. tempe tu tarik saya atas banana boat...hahaha...
then naik balik banana boat tu,... sekali lagi, tempe tu pusing and terpelantingkan kitorg kat tepi laut tu,.. yg 2nd tu dah okey, x panik nak lemas dah.. hihihi..
lepas main air laut.. makan nasi lemak, kakak usrah yg buatkan..sedap2... posing amek gmbr.. :D it is a fun thing to do...
during bumpy pelampung tu kan, sbnrnya... saya je jerit dari start pelampung tu gerak smpailaa dia stopkan.. kawan sebelah, aka, mira senyap jek...
okeylaa, skrg nak rehat, ptg ni nak gi jogging.. :)
a few pictures...
so pagi ni pergi ke beach, ngan kakak usrah,, yeaahhaaa...
makan2, borak, mandi laut, naik bumpy pelampung (seriously mmg terlompat2 atas pelampung tu) and banana boat..
naik banana boat org tempe tu ckp yg ringan duk depan, cess mcm biasalaa ceteka sapa yg kena duk dpn....it's me... mcm nak terpelanting... pastu skli tempe tu pusingkan boat yg bawak banana boat tu,... org depanlaa yg terpelanting jauh from the others...xsuka2.... sbbnya air yg sgt masin, cm dah lemas... and saya panik..its like..waaarrggghhhh.!! x leh pijak something, i m going to drown... seriously nak nangis... pastu tempe tu ckp just relax2...
a few minutes later,.. mmg saya x leh rilek.. tempe tu tarik saya atas banana boat...hahaha...
then naik balik banana boat tu,... sekali lagi, tempe tu pusing and terpelantingkan kitorg kat tepi laut tu,.. yg 2nd tu dah okey, x panik nak lemas dah.. hihihi..
lepas main air laut.. makan nasi lemak, kakak usrah yg buatkan..sedap2... posing amek gmbr.. :D it is a fun thing to do...
during bumpy pelampung tu kan, sbnrnya... saya je jerit dari start pelampung tu gerak smpailaa dia stopkan.. kawan sebelah, aka, mira senyap jek...
okeylaa, skrg nak rehat, ptg ni nak gi jogging.. :)
a few pictures...
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| bermain air,.. x leh blah posing.. ngahaha |
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| gaya datin wannabe... gmbr herod.. |
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| bru nak berkenalan ngan air pantai.. :D |
Friday, October 21, 2011
make up
one thing that cross my mind about make up is the word HOT... followed by, WASTE, then, followed by,NATURAL...
okay let me explain,
1. bile dah make up and dressing cecantik, brulaa nmpak hot kan? well, many girls are like that.. and of course they can attracts the opposite gender just like a huge magnet, can you imagine how powerful they are?
2.waste. is when nak spend time utk make up and nak buang make up tu bila nak solat, buang masa.. :P
3.natural, well i prefer natural beauty, sbb nmpak always cam okay je, pale is the new sexy, hahaha.. (itu pendapat saya je), kalau boleh x payah nak tempek foundation tu byk2, rugi masa je....
hmm, okaylaa, sapa2 nak make up boleh je, tp jgn over ye saudari nanti nmpak cm pelik,.. biar sederhana tp asalkan nmpak innocent, igt, asset muka INNOCENT tu sgt penting bg perempuan, hehehe..
so, saya try make up, rumate yg buatkan, seriously, in my opinion, saya rasa okay bila x make up... :)
and i feel happy and good just the way i am.. and with make saya nmpak mcm mak tiri garang (maybe it is because of my eyebrows are too thick)..okay...babai
okay let me explain,
1. bile dah make up and dressing cecantik, brulaa nmpak hot kan? well, many girls are like that.. and of course they can attracts the opposite gender just like a huge magnet, can you imagine how powerful they are?
2.waste. is when nak spend time utk make up and nak buang make up tu bila nak solat, buang masa.. :P
3.natural, well i prefer natural beauty, sbb nmpak always cam okay je, pale is the new sexy, hahaha.. (itu pendapat saya je), kalau boleh x payah nak tempek foundation tu byk2, rugi masa je....
hmm, okaylaa, sapa2 nak make up boleh je, tp jgn over ye saudari nanti nmpak cm pelik,.. biar sederhana tp asalkan nmpak innocent, igt, asset muka INNOCENT tu sgt penting bg perempuan, hehehe..
so, saya try make up, rumate yg buatkan, seriously, in my opinion, saya rasa okay bila x make up... :)
and i feel happy and good just the way i am.. and with make saya nmpak mcm mak tiri garang (maybe it is because of my eyebrows are too thick)..okay...babai
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| gmbr perasan comel bila dah make up..but frankly i prefer the more natural me!! :P |
jogging.. :)
hari ni dah jog 2 round, x apa sikit2, x leh nak paksa diri sgt, yg penting, consistent!..pg tadi gi kelas pakai heels, mmg sakit kaki, cemana laa diorg leh survive pakai heels tinggi2.. tp pakai heels mmg nampak hot sikit.,(perasan) hehe..
i am happy today, mkn pun okay, dah berpeluh bila jog,..
call abah, sembang2 jap, abah kata, lepas ni lari 5 km everyday, baru kuat sikit.. pergghh, i lari pun x sampai 1 km, x apa, i terima sebagai cabaran, 1 round = about 400 m, hari ni baru 800 m, heh, malu nih,sikit sangat,,.
kalau 5km, rasanya 12 round setengah, okey2..
maknanya esok kena lari dalam 4 round , so, 1.6 km x apa2 i will do it, i nak reach smpai 5 km...!!
semangat2!,.. yeah, seriously, teringin nak jadi org yg kuat lari, baru badan cam steady, x laa lembik sgt, yg penting, stamina.. everyday balik dari practical mesti letih, so kena build up stamina utk bertahan.. jadi cergas...masalahnya pulak, kalau i dah start lari, kerja kaki nih nak speed up je, i don't know why..
huh, peluh meleleh kat muka... one of the best feeling i ever had.. :P..baju jadi basah... best sgt2..
okay, sgt penuh dgn ke excited'an...
esok ada dental materials nye practical... acrylic block saya belum di 'polish kan,.. i really hope that it turns out to be perfect.. yezzaa..!!
k, saya dah ngantuk, sbnrnya saya x mandi lagi sejak balik dr jogging td, sebab tolong housemate kemas dapur.. hehe.. k,, babai.. :)
i am happy today, mkn pun okay, dah berpeluh bila jog,..
call abah, sembang2 jap, abah kata, lepas ni lari 5 km everyday, baru kuat sikit.. pergghh, i lari pun x sampai 1 km, x apa, i terima sebagai cabaran, 1 round = about 400 m, hari ni baru 800 m, heh, malu nih,sikit sangat,,.
kalau 5km, rasanya 12 round setengah, okey2..
maknanya esok kena lari dalam 4 round , so, 1.6 km x apa2 i will do it, i nak reach smpai 5 km...!!
semangat2!,.. yeah, seriously, teringin nak jadi org yg kuat lari, baru badan cam steady, x laa lembik sgt, yg penting, stamina.. everyday balik dari practical mesti letih, so kena build up stamina utk bertahan.. jadi cergas...masalahnya pulak, kalau i dah start lari, kerja kaki nih nak speed up je, i don't know why..
huh, peluh meleleh kat muka... one of the best feeling i ever had.. :P..baju jadi basah... best sgt2..
okay, sgt penuh dgn ke excited'an...
esok ada dental materials nye practical... acrylic block saya belum di 'polish kan,.. i really hope that it turns out to be perfect.. yezzaa..!!
k, saya dah ngantuk, sbnrnya saya x mandi lagi sejak balik dr jogging td, sebab tolong housemate kemas dapur.. hehe.. k,, babai.. :)
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
jerkss!!!
what can i say when a man who are supposed to be a protector of a woman,jadi jahat,nak kata lelaki tu moron,jackass, or more suitable words that can be used is,........... $#%$&....hurmm okay afifah, calm down,...
spesis lelaki yg x boleh pakai, bila nak sesuatu utk puaskan nafsu, macam2 dia ckp kan, tp kalau x di bgi, kutuk2 macam2 pasal perempuan tu,.. sedarlaa saudara, perempuan yg baik utk lelaki yg baik, and if you x berubah, and you doesnt deserve perempuan yg baik at all, remember that! you dont need to pretend you are pious, seriously dude, i'm not buying your lies...
this thing happen to my friend, she is indeed a very nice girl who doesn't expose anything about the boy,she refuses the 'uncivillised' request from him,..and after that the boy ckp bukan2 pasal my friend..seriously saya mmglaaa sgt2 geram,. owh, depan kitorang punya laa berlakon baik, tp belakang, bukan main lagi kau!..
okay that boy is in the mbbs faculty same age as mine,.. wahh,,.. nak jadi doctor, tp perangai!!.. huh..!!
secara jujurnya, even though this thing happen to my friend, saya memang x boleh nak tgk muka llki yg pura2 innocent tu.. feels like want to puke....and kick his ass at the same time..
spesis lelaki yg x boleh pakai, bila nak sesuatu utk puaskan nafsu, macam2 dia ckp kan, tp kalau x di bgi, kutuk2 macam2 pasal perempuan tu,.. sedarlaa saudara, perempuan yg baik utk lelaki yg baik, and if you x berubah, and you doesnt deserve perempuan yg baik at all, remember that! you dont need to pretend you are pious, seriously dude, i'm not buying your lies...
this thing happen to my friend, she is indeed a very nice girl who doesn't expose anything about the boy,she refuses the 'uncivillised' request from him,..and after that the boy ckp bukan2 pasal my friend..seriously saya mmglaaa sgt2 geram,. owh, depan kitorang punya laa berlakon baik, tp belakang, bukan main lagi kau!..
okay that boy is in the mbbs faculty same age as mine,.. wahh,,.. nak jadi doctor, tp perangai!!.. huh..!!
secara jujurnya, even though this thing happen to my friend, saya memang x boleh nak tgk muka llki yg pura2 innocent tu.. feels like want to puke....and kick his ass at the same time..
Monday, October 17, 2011
stress
today class... is not really good... this is the disadvantage of sharing the class with the juniors,my mistake is spotted and wallaaah... in a few seconds, everybody knew, and i can feel that my body is shrinking that time... feel embarassed, and angry at the same time, my face , it looks that i m going to cry,...
and i feel like crying, it is just that, no tears coming out, public humiliation, it happens once again, the last time that it happened is when i got bullied by seniors during secondary school... where i felt totally hopeless watching everyone talking and laughing about my stupidity, and gain less respect from others..it looks like it is going to happen once again, where juniors will look at me , like i was hopeless and a stupid senior, although the only 'respect' that i have gain is the invisibility,.. where nobody realize that i come from the same college as they are..
i am down right now,.. i need motivation,..
reminder for me,,
1. don't give a damn about juniors, it is not that they will not do any mistake in future..
2.so what? if you are invisible, it is for your own good, you are free to commit any mistakes, remember, the more mistake you did, the more you will gain...
3. people who laugh at you is not perfect, and they are not saint,... what goes around will comes around..
4.take this as a lesson, do not repeat the same mistake in the future..
5. you are not stupid, you are just smart and beautiful in your own way..
6.you re not hopeless, you were strong!! that is why god is testing your confidence and iman this way..
7.things happen for a reason,...the reason might not come right away after you identified your mistakes
8. lastly smile, it is not the end of the world. :):)))))
remember, don't feel unhappy because of these little things..smile and please bring back the cheerful afifah,.. don't just give away your happy'self,just because of this unworthy pathetic thoughts.....
and i feel like crying, it is just that, no tears coming out, public humiliation, it happens once again, the last time that it happened is when i got bullied by seniors during secondary school... where i felt totally hopeless watching everyone talking and laughing about my stupidity, and gain less respect from others..it looks like it is going to happen once again, where juniors will look at me , like i was hopeless and a stupid senior, although the only 'respect' that i have gain is the invisibility,.. where nobody realize that i come from the same college as they are..
i am down right now,.. i need motivation,..
reminder for me,,
1. don't give a damn about juniors, it is not that they will not do any mistake in future..
2.so what? if you are invisible, it is for your own good, you are free to commit any mistakes, remember, the more mistake you did, the more you will gain...
3. people who laugh at you is not perfect, and they are not saint,... what goes around will comes around..
4.take this as a lesson, do not repeat the same mistake in the future..
5. you are not stupid, you are just smart and beautiful in your own way..
6.you re not hopeless, you were strong!! that is why god is testing your confidence and iman this way..
7.things happen for a reason,...the reason might not come right away after you identified your mistakes
8. lastly smile, it is not the end of the world. :):)))))
remember, don't feel unhappy because of these little things..smile and please bring back the cheerful afifah,.. don't just give away your happy'self,just because of this unworthy pathetic thoughts.....
Sunday, October 16, 2011
doctor vs teacher
it is shocking for me to know that the salary of the teachers going up to same level as doctors,..
shocking + annoying + confused... why? because teachers job are not easy,same goes to doctors too,.. handling students and to educate them is quite a challenge, then i would say, doctors too had some problems, have to deal with patients emotions, their health, it is not a simple things, all of the diagnosis and prognosis of a patient, and their skills is very very important,..
teachers are meddling and gambling with futures of our own youth, and doctors are gambling with patients life..
so, if the gov wants to increase the salary of the teachers, they should increase the salary of the doctors too,..
i think it is not fair to raise the salary of all the teachers and ignoring the other professionals career.. can you imagine what it is going to be in the next few years? yes.. more of our young generations prefer to choose the career in education rather than in medicine or other professional career, right ?? of course, life is more comfortable, no need to be overstretched and stressed out for exams and classes during their degree like the medical students, which i would say, have no life at all.. 24 hours facing books..and practicing their skills( these apply to dental students), have holidays on saturday and sunday, which is heaven for the medical practitioner to have rest like that for a while, after 26 hours without sleep for a day...it is not worth it... study and work like hell, and when the paycheck comes, what? is this it? not worth at all,.. come on, doctors are human too,.. they need money as well as their life,...
my father, sister and my brother in law are teachers,.. and i am soon to be a dentist,...actually i don't really mind with the salary of the teachers,but after seeing some of my friend (medical students) struggle a lot and have to sacrifice their times and etc,.. my point of view changed,.. i just think that it is not fair...i don't put the blame on teachers, their salary should raise, because they have given their times and effort to educate youth, but please not ignore the other professionals too....
this article is a bit biased,... and it is just my personal opinion, don't take it too hard okay,.. just relax and chill..
shocking + annoying + confused... why? because teachers job are not easy,same goes to doctors too,.. handling students and to educate them is quite a challenge, then i would say, doctors too had some problems, have to deal with patients emotions, their health, it is not a simple things, all of the diagnosis and prognosis of a patient, and their skills is very very important,..
teachers are meddling and gambling with futures of our own youth, and doctors are gambling with patients life..
so, if the gov wants to increase the salary of the teachers, they should increase the salary of the doctors too,..
i think it is not fair to raise the salary of all the teachers and ignoring the other professionals career.. can you imagine what it is going to be in the next few years? yes.. more of our young generations prefer to choose the career in education rather than in medicine or other professional career, right ?? of course, life is more comfortable, no need to be overstretched and stressed out for exams and classes during their degree like the medical students, which i would say, have no life at all.. 24 hours facing books..and practicing their skills( these apply to dental students), have holidays on saturday and sunday, which is heaven for the medical practitioner to have rest like that for a while, after 26 hours without sleep for a day...it is not worth it... study and work like hell, and when the paycheck comes, what? is this it? not worth at all,.. come on, doctors are human too,.. they need money as well as their life,...
my father, sister and my brother in law are teachers,.. and i am soon to be a dentist,...actually i don't really mind with the salary of the teachers,but after seeing some of my friend (medical students) struggle a lot and have to sacrifice their times and etc,.. my point of view changed,.. i just think that it is not fair...i don't put the blame on teachers, their salary should raise, because they have given their times and effort to educate youth, but please not ignore the other professionals too....
this article is a bit biased,... and it is just my personal opinion, don't take it too hard okay,.. just relax and chill..
Friday, October 14, 2011
gambar raya
ni je gmbr raya yg ada, yg lain semua x sesuai utk dipaparkan... :)
and ada gmbar org yg saya rindu sekarang nih,... mr puteh...
x ada gmbar family sebab gmbr tu ada dlm kamera abg azmir.. :( sorry..
and ada gmbar org yg saya rindu sekarang nih,... mr puteh...
x ada gmbar family sebab gmbr tu ada dlm kamera abg azmir.. :( sorry..
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| meet puteh.. :P |
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| mata iqbal.. haha, gedik.. |
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| abah.. :) |
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| nina.. :) |
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| why oh why.. ? |
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| sisters...:) |
Sunday, October 9, 2011
okey, saya yg salah...
remember the last entry i posted??
i told u how much i hate to go to Open House...
well, here i am, now, writing to say that i am wrong about that,that OH turned out to be good,..
seeing friends, talk to each other, makes me feel that i am part of them..
forget about the emotional entry that i wrote..
actually, the food are nice...
thanks to my friends who are willing to cook for the open house,..
honestly, i feel guilty for being such an a** that time....
well, girls will be girls, emo + pms + etc...hahaha, and i am a girl, so, once again, sorry for making the entry like that..
dah lama dah x menulis, entry pun cam keling je..
i told u how much i hate to go to Open House...
well, here i am, now, writing to say that i am wrong about that,that OH turned out to be good,..
seeing friends, talk to each other, makes me feel that i am part of them..
forget about the emotional entry that i wrote..
actually, the food are nice...
thanks to my friends who are willing to cook for the open house,..
honestly, i feel guilty for being such an a** that time....
well, girls will be girls, emo + pms + etc...hahaha, and i am a girl, so, once again, sorry for making the entry like that..
dah lama dah x menulis, entry pun cam keling je..
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
open house
this is what i hate!! OPEN HOUSE...
minggu lepas dah ada org buat open house, minggu ni pun sama, adeh, berapa ratus kali korang nak buat,
dah penat dah tau gerak sana sini,.. every week,..
okey blame myself maybe i am such a jerk, but still boleh tak everybody slow down sket, i know, everyone want to show their skills in cooking, heh....but pleaassee slow down, hari cuti je korang nak buat, i nak rehat and study pun x boleh tau x?
aku ni dahlaa mmg type of susah sgt nak cari mood utk study, then bila dah nak start study bebetul, adalaa jemputan nak buat open house rayalaa apelaaa,... :(
cuti sehari je wey, hari raya haji nanti korang buatlaa, skrg ni maseh awal lagi, my notes pun x habes update lagi, dah nak kena pegi rumah korang, haih..okeylaaa, maybe korang cakap nanti x bleh hidup bermasyarakat laa, apelaa, tp my notes x ter update lagi,study pun belum habes, korang x pelaa boleh belajar sekali dah dapat, but i have to struggle baru leh dapat.. sedih tau x?.. practical pun merangkak lagi..
then i have to spent my time join open house lagi, smpai petang, pastu penat, pastu x belajar?
minggu lepas dah ada org buat open house, minggu ni pun sama, adeh, berapa ratus kali korang nak buat,
dah penat dah tau gerak sana sini,.. every week,..
okey blame myself maybe i am such a jerk, but still boleh tak everybody slow down sket, i know, everyone want to show their skills in cooking, heh....but pleaassee slow down, hari cuti je korang nak buat, i nak rehat and study pun x boleh tau x?
aku ni dahlaa mmg type of susah sgt nak cari mood utk study, then bila dah nak start study bebetul, adalaa jemputan nak buat open house rayalaa apelaaa,... :(
cuti sehari je wey, hari raya haji nanti korang buatlaa, skrg ni maseh awal lagi, my notes pun x habes update lagi, dah nak kena pegi rumah korang, haih..okeylaaa, maybe korang cakap nanti x bleh hidup bermasyarakat laa, apelaa, tp my notes x ter update lagi,study pun belum habes, korang x pelaa boleh belajar sekali dah dapat, but i have to struggle baru leh dapat.. sedih tau x?.. practical pun merangkak lagi..
then i have to spent my time join open house lagi, smpai petang, pastu penat, pastu x belajar?
Saturday, October 1, 2011
second year of BDS
pejam celik struggle for a while, dah habes dah 1st year BDS, dah masuk 2nd year.. this is just the beginning, everything seems to be fine but the practicals are getting tougher, ugh... so malaaasss!!!!
okay, i have to do the practicals on the restorations of teeth, susah!!! kena sgt teliti...
dental materials belajar pasal materials, hehe, i like!! but the most annoying goes to prosthodontics practical (making dentures).. sobs, hate them, i screwed up MOST of the time..
i shifted from IH (international hostel) to Premier Residency, quite okaylaaa, comfy enough for me..and from now on,i have to walk to class, which is good for me...
sekarang dah masuk jadi senior, rasa mcm usia dah makin lanjut.. hahahaha but still i think most of my juniors are smoking hot and gorgeous..(referring to girls!!) jealous pun ada jugak.. stylo betul diorg nih, and sometimes i wonder, bila laa diorng dptkan masa utk hias jadi cantik2... huh??? still in doubt, but i never asked them about it,
AND, surprisingly, bila junior dah masuk manipal, berlakulah lambakan couple2 yg merempit motor bersama sama.... and they study , eat, walk, TOGETHER, all the time.. :(.. (unsur jealous)...
hurmm... tp x apalaa jodoh saya belum sampai lagi.,... i guess this is not the time for me yet,.. :)..
btw, wish me luck for my second year of BDS,,... hopefully it went well just as my first year of BDS.. :)
okey, thats all.. see you soon ,.. muahhxx.. XOXO.. :)
okay, i have to do the practicals on the restorations of teeth, susah!!! kena sgt teliti...
dental materials belajar pasal materials, hehe, i like!! but the most annoying goes to prosthodontics practical (making dentures).. sobs, hate them, i screwed up MOST of the time..
i shifted from IH (international hostel) to Premier Residency, quite okaylaaa, comfy enough for me..and from now on,i have to walk to class, which is good for me...
sekarang dah masuk jadi senior, rasa mcm usia dah makin lanjut.. hahahaha but still i think most of my juniors are smoking hot and gorgeous..(referring to girls!!) jealous pun ada jugak.. stylo betul diorg nih, and sometimes i wonder, bila laa diorng dptkan masa utk hias jadi cantik2... huh??? still in doubt, but i never asked them about it,
AND, surprisingly, bila junior dah masuk manipal, berlakulah lambakan couple2 yg merempit motor bersama sama.... and they study , eat, walk, TOGETHER, all the time.. :(.. (unsur jealous)...
hurmm... tp x apalaa jodoh saya belum sampai lagi.,... i guess this is not the time for me yet,.. :)..
btw, wish me luck for my second year of BDS,,... hopefully it went well just as my first year of BDS.. :)
okey, thats all.. see you soon ,.. muahhxx.. XOXO.. :)
Monday, August 1, 2011
practical~
Assalamualaikum,
baru habis paper practical physiology, frankly, soalan, teramatlaa senang, including the performance test.. :)
alhamdulillah, bulan puasa nih, rasa mcm mudah saja semua benda.. everything is easy..
mudah mudahan kita semua di berkati oleh Allah swt,.. :)
rasa mengantuk, tp construction work kat floor atas, bising sgt smpai x leh tido,
nak gi shopping, x leh kot, sebab nanti leka....esok ada paper biochem, agak berat sket, sbb ada soalan OSPE,..jawab pun kena cepat2, physiological basis, selalu kena tanya.. :D
tapi x apa, lagi sikit lagi, insya Allah, semua pass...
penatnyaa... rasa letih, nak tido tp bising sgt,...
x sabar nak balik malaysia, tp byk bnda yg nak kena setel,.
1.tiket flight ( confirmkan dulu )
2. tiket train
3.dokumen at police station
4.dokumen utk vacant the hostel,..
antara yg paling berat skali, dokumen utk hostel tu, dahlaa byk prosedur, yg itulaa , inilaaa...
ugh,.. geram gak...
complicated plak rules kat sini, dahlaa org bz nak exam, still nak kena uruskan surat tu lagi..
penat ulang alik MAHE building tu, tp chief warden selalu TIADA,..
kena amek tandatangan dia lagi...
baru habis paper practical physiology, frankly, soalan, teramatlaa senang, including the performance test.. :)
alhamdulillah, bulan puasa nih, rasa mcm mudah saja semua benda.. everything is easy..
mudah mudahan kita semua di berkati oleh Allah swt,.. :)
rasa mengantuk, tp construction work kat floor atas, bising sgt smpai x leh tido,
nak gi shopping, x leh kot, sebab nanti leka....esok ada paper biochem, agak berat sket, sbb ada soalan OSPE,..jawab pun kena cepat2, physiological basis, selalu kena tanya.. :D
tapi x apa, lagi sikit lagi, insya Allah, semua pass...
penatnyaa... rasa letih, nak tido tp bising sgt,...
x sabar nak balik malaysia, tp byk bnda yg nak kena setel,.
1.tiket flight ( confirmkan dulu )
2. tiket train
3.dokumen at police station
4.dokumen utk vacant the hostel,..
antara yg paling berat skali, dokumen utk hostel tu, dahlaa byk prosedur, yg itulaa , inilaaa...
ugh,.. geram gak...
complicated plak rules kat sini, dahlaa org bz nak exam, still nak kena uruskan surat tu lagi..
penat ulang alik MAHE building tu, tp chief warden selalu TIADA,..
kena amek tandatangan dia lagi...
Saturday, July 30, 2011
selendang...
huh, semalam menyahut cabaran utk pakai selendang,
penat gak lilit2 tp x jadi pun,...
heh, :(
nampak gila kebulatan pipi bila pakai selendang...
few pics, camwhoring, slps try selendang...
biarlaaa pipi gemoks pun...
x kisah pun..
kehkehkeh... whateverlaaa, bila camwhore je mesti nak senyum.. automatik.. :P..
btw, selamat berpuasa..mama ckp saya x ada gigi.. :D funny...
penat gak lilit2 tp x jadi pun,...
heh, :(
nampak gila kebulatan pipi bila pakai selendang...
few pics, camwhoring, slps try selendang...
biarlaaa pipi gemoks pun...
x kisah pun..
kehkehkeh... whateverlaaa, bila camwhore je mesti nak senyum.. automatik.. :P..
btw, selamat berpuasa..mama ckp saya x ada gigi.. :D funny...
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
rindu mereka!!
tadi baru call mama.. dia sihat alhamdulillah,..
rindu nyaa!!!
tiap2 malam, golek2 atas katil teringat family kat rumah,..
nak balik masaklaaa, beli baju raya laa..
hihihihihihi... seronok...
nak jumpa iqbal DEMOK...
nak jumpa wani MONSTER...
nak jumpa aida EMO..
nak jumpa kak watip GARANG..
nak jumpa kak lina ....... ( x tau nak isi apa)
nak jumpa mama SAYANG.
nak jumpa abah COOL...
hihi... okeylaa..
rasanya tu saja,... x habis2..
teringat kat jaygeeEll... :)
rindu nyaa!!!
tiap2 malam, golek2 atas katil teringat family kat rumah,..
nak balik masaklaaa, beli baju raya laa..
hihihihihihi... seronok...
nak jumpa iqbal DEMOK...
nak jumpa wani MONSTER...
nak jumpa aida EMO..
nak jumpa kak watip GARANG..
nak jumpa kak lina ....... ( x tau nak isi apa)
nak jumpa mama SAYANG.
nak jumpa abah COOL...
hihi... okeylaa..
rasanya tu saja,... x habis2..
teringat kat jaygeeEll... :)
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
4 more to go...
4 more papers to go, practicals...
tp mood sekarang nak balik cepat2 saja...
semalam dah buat movie marathon... :D ( tah apa2)
mcm2 laaa..
sekarang pun masih x stop lagi nak berfoya foya..
*sigh*... nak kumpul mood utk blajar practical...
nak buat mana dulu??
biochemistry or physiology?
anatomy? dental anatomy and histology??
byknyaaaa... tp x apa.. teruskan jugak...
ternmpk gmbr program JBJ kat fb...
rindu kat jenan tp kalau ada kat malaysia pun, malas nak pegi...
segan... malas nak jawab banyak2 soalan drpd junior..
tp rindu nak jumpa cikgu2 kat sana...
bgn pagi nak mandi, tgk muka kat cermin....
baru semalam kena puji muka licin, pagi nih dah ada jerawat mini yg timbul... :( ceh.. pantang je....
MOOD : paramore.... :)
tp mood sekarang nak balik cepat2 saja...
semalam dah buat movie marathon... :D ( tah apa2)
mcm2 laaa..
sekarang pun masih x stop lagi nak berfoya foya..
*sigh*... nak kumpul mood utk blajar practical...
nak buat mana dulu??
biochemistry or physiology?
anatomy? dental anatomy and histology??
byknyaaaa... tp x apa.. teruskan jugak...
ternmpk gmbr program JBJ kat fb...
rindu kat jenan tp kalau ada kat malaysia pun, malas nak pegi...
segan... malas nak jawab banyak2 soalan drpd junior..
tp rindu nak jumpa cikgu2 kat sana...
bgn pagi nak mandi, tgk muka kat cermin....
baru semalam kena puji muka licin, pagi nih dah ada jerawat mini yg timbul... :( ceh.. pantang je....
MOOD : paramore.... :)
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
air panas
waahhh, dah kira cm nak marah sgt nih, bila nak mandi air panas x ada.... direct cmtu.. marah gilaaaa!!!!!!!!
x guna punya tempe, dahlaa bayar duit facilities mahal2 tp ntah apa2... bukan setakat air panas, air pun kadang2 x ada. dahlaa sekrg musim hujan , sejuk laaaa!.. @$#%#$^%$&...last time terpaksa mandi air sejuk, menggigil, tergigit pipi smpai berdarah darah,luka, sakit tu ambil masa bbrapa hari nak heal, lagi sekali $%#^&^&*,...dahlaa saya x pernah marah....aishhhh...
x suka laa cmni...
i am soooo MAD this time ...
stupid..!!!! selalu cmni, org da schedule masa baik2. time ni nak mandi time ni nak belajar,,.. sekian2..
hadoi, kalau ikutkan hati.. habis roboh semua hostel ni...
rindu greenwood dulu, nak mandi air panas pun x ada masalah..
sobs...
TEMPE
memang
macam
...............
sila penuhkan tempat kosong di atas...
x guna punya tempe, dahlaa bayar duit facilities mahal2 tp ntah apa2... bukan setakat air panas, air pun kadang2 x ada. dahlaa sekrg musim hujan , sejuk laaaa!.. @$#%#$^%$&...last time terpaksa mandi air sejuk, menggigil, tergigit pipi smpai berdarah darah,luka, sakit tu ambil masa bbrapa hari nak heal, lagi sekali $%#^&^&*,...dahlaa saya x pernah marah....aishhhh...
x suka laa cmni...
i am soooo MAD this time ...
stupid..!!!! selalu cmni, org da schedule masa baik2. time ni nak mandi time ni nak belajar,,.. sekian2..
hadoi, kalau ikutkan hati.. habis roboh semua hostel ni...
rindu greenwood dulu, nak mandi air panas pun x ada masalah..
sobs...
TEMPE
memang
macam
...............
sila penuhkan tempat kosong di atas...
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
just a dream..
huh, last night tidur yg best...
x sedar apa pun dah pg.. :D
but teringat psl mimpi,
me wearing a white silver gown, pgg kasut, rambut kusut masai, jalan kaki ayam..hahha..
and i hear some one cakap, jgn bg dia lari,...and then i ran away..
hahahahaha.. tah apa2....lawak jugak rasa mcm terlepas dari wad sakit gila pun ada gak.. hurmmm.. (thinking)
esok ada paper physiology, wish me luck... doakan saya.. :D
like the above picture but with no smile.....
i think maybe i am actually running away from these exams... *sigh*
x sedar apa pun dah pg.. :D
but teringat psl mimpi,
me wearing a white silver gown, pgg kasut, rambut kusut masai, jalan kaki ayam..hahha..
and i hear some one cakap, jgn bg dia lari,...and then i ran away..
hahahahaha.. tah apa2....lawak jugak rasa mcm terlepas dari wad sakit gila pun ada gak.. hurmmm.. (thinking)
esok ada paper physiology, wish me luck... doakan saya.. :D
like the above picture but with no smile.....
i think maybe i am actually running away from these exams... *sigh*
1 down 3 more to go
well, after the first paper, anatomy,.. I FELT SO RELIEVED....
yet i am grateful to Allah swt, i can answer the question , and as usual , lots of INCOMPLETE answer, but anyway, i really hope i pass,...
right now, i am spending my time in front of the laptop, looking for some songs... tired of reading blogs about the celebrity, politics in my country,.. blah blah bla........the newspaper in malaysia, i did not believe them anymore, its full of lies and crap...
so, i found something which in my opinion is cool and i like it,..well if you doesn't like it, it's okay with me,..
the soundtrack of the movie,which are made by HANS ZIMMER, is truly amazing,
he is so genius and creative... Have you ever watch Gladiator, Inception, The dark Knight and The Pirates of Carribean??(rasanya, semua dah tgk kan? kan?) well, the soundtrack of the films above are made by him...
i would say that his soundtrack that makes the movies superbly awesome,
and of course,without the sound effects, any movies will become lame and boring right?,...
here is the soundtrack of the inception.....
warning : if you don't like orchestra, don't listen to the soundtrack.... :P
tetiba rasa lenguh kaki bila sejuk2 nih.. x best langsung,... :(
dont feel like studying tonight, just want to have a good night sleep...
could not wait to go back home!! so homesick... :(
yet i am grateful to Allah swt, i can answer the question , and as usual , lots of INCOMPLETE answer, but anyway, i really hope i pass,...
right now, i am spending my time in front of the laptop, looking for some songs... tired of reading blogs about the celebrity, politics in my country,.. blah blah bla........the newspaper in malaysia, i did not believe them anymore, its full of lies and crap...
so, i found something which in my opinion is cool and i like it,..well if you doesn't like it, it's okay with me,..
the soundtrack of the movie,which are made by HANS ZIMMER, is truly amazing,
he is so genius and creative... Have you ever watch Gladiator, Inception, The dark Knight and The Pirates of Carribean??(rasanya, semua dah tgk kan? kan?) well, the soundtrack of the films above are made by him...
i would say that his soundtrack that makes the movies superbly awesome,
and of course,without the sound effects, any movies will become lame and boring right?,...
here is the soundtrack of the inception.....
warning : if you don't like orchestra, don't listen to the soundtrack.... :P
tetiba rasa lenguh kaki bila sejuk2 nih.. x best langsung,... :(
dont feel like studying tonight, just want to have a good night sleep...
could not wait to go back home!! so homesick... :(
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
my heart goes. and..(no pulse)....I AM DEAD...
the things that makes me feel like that = UNIVERSITY EXAMS is really coming,..i really have a lot ...to study,...kayuh pelan sangat dulu.. sobs.. but anyway.. mmg rasa nervous yg ter ammaaattt sgt..
okay here is the situation,..
my IA marks..
anatomy = 20 means that i have to work for the 30 marks more to pass
physiology = 24 , 26 more to go
biochemistry = 23, 27 more to go
dental anatomy and dental histology = 22, 28 marks more to go..
i already freak out, really want to pass, if not, i'm not allowed to go back to Malaysia this raya,
so, of course i don't want this kind of thing to happen...
my place, serabut, pensel H&E pun dah jadi pendek......
Sunday, July 10, 2011
being an outcast
did you ever experienced this kind of real life situations? where you are so desperately trying to get a friend and trying so hard to be accepted by a group of people around you.. well i have, and now i realized how stupid i was that time...
being an outcast, it sucks, where people does not recognized you and felt weird if you said Hi' to them once...
well it happens to me when i was in secondary schools and in college, where i was surrounded with those people who think themselves are needed by others and people can die or not survived if they are not there...
okay, let me explain,
during college, i always wanted to make friends and try to socialize with others, i want to be like that... to be like them, 'them ' who are being like the 'hottie' of the college, where when you said Hi to a total strangers, and they will say Hi back to you, sound a little bit cliche' actually, but, the point is, i am NOT like them...
so, it happens for 2 years in KMS, then i realized that i was just being a moron all the time, because of the chase to be a well know girl in college..after that, i promise to myself not to chase all of those stupid thingy and get a fresh start in university....
BUT, now, those feeling come back to me, ... i felt so intimidated when i started to be friends with a girl named AA..
she is so cool, got so many friends and everybody loves her, a contradiction of myself..well of course, she is one damn pretty girl...okay,even JGL said that she is sweet girl.. :( :( :( :( :(
and AA is a good friend of NN, which is a well known girl also, one day in library, they accidentally bump into each other in the discussion room, i was there too at that table, studying with AA..
then they started to talk about boys..blah blah...
NN : last time i went out for a dinner with our senior... SS
AA : oh ye..
then the conversation is going on and on and on.. and HELLOOO, did anybody sees me studying here...??
well, it seems like both of them are so pre occupied with their conversation...
i felt so sad.. and promised myself not come to library anymore..
the truth is... i will never be recognized or being realized for my existence, people find me only when they need me, remember about the house where we want to live for next year, i ve been kicked out, because they want that house and that house is small, 1 must go out, so, that unlucky person is me...seriously, i felt like ....
i don't know what to say,.. it feels really bad when you does not have anything at all to make people impressed...and people think you are a loser at all time..
yeah, its true,, to felt like shitty when being an outcast,.. :(
feeling so DOWN......
being an outcast, it sucks, where people does not recognized you and felt weird if you said Hi' to them once...
well it happens to me when i was in secondary schools and in college, where i was surrounded with those people who think themselves are needed by others and people can die or not survived if they are not there...
okay, let me explain,
during college, i always wanted to make friends and try to socialize with others, i want to be like that... to be like them, 'them ' who are being like the 'hottie' of the college, where when you said Hi to a total strangers, and they will say Hi back to you, sound a little bit cliche' actually, but, the point is, i am NOT like them...
so, it happens for 2 years in KMS, then i realized that i was just being a moron all the time, because of the chase to be a well know girl in college..after that, i promise to myself not to chase all of those stupid thingy and get a fresh start in university....
BUT, now, those feeling come back to me, ... i felt so intimidated when i started to be friends with a girl named AA..
she is so cool, got so many friends and everybody loves her, a contradiction of myself..well of course, she is one damn pretty girl...okay,even JGL said that she is sweet girl.. :( :( :( :( :(
and AA is a good friend of NN, which is a well known girl also, one day in library, they accidentally bump into each other in the discussion room, i was there too at that table, studying with AA..
then they started to talk about boys..blah blah...
NN : last time i went out for a dinner with our senior... SS
AA : oh ye..
then the conversation is going on and on and on.. and HELLOOO, did anybody sees me studying here...??
well, it seems like both of them are so pre occupied with their conversation...
i felt so sad.. and promised myself not come to library anymore..
the truth is... i will never be recognized or being realized for my existence, people find me only when they need me, remember about the house where we want to live for next year, i ve been kicked out, because they want that house and that house is small, 1 must go out, so, that unlucky person is me...seriously, i felt like ....
i don't know what to say,.. it feels really bad when you does not have anything at all to make people impressed...and people think you are a loser at all time..
yeah, its true,, to felt like shitty when being an outcast,.. :(
feeling so DOWN......
hope and faith....
some times i wonder, am i in the right path? or i still going on and on and on commited sins, without realising it...
make me strong my Lord... :), to get through these situations...
make me strong my Lord... :), to get through these situations...
Friday, July 8, 2011
tense...
exam is coming, there so many things that i need to study...
honestly, i would prefer to study in purpose of i want to know, and not because of exams...
i am not good with memorizing facts, but i am really good memorizing diagrams....
it is true, i am good with teeth.. its anatomy, but i am not good in anatomy of the head and neck... it sucks...
duh... i love to be enlighten... not to be force to memorize things without functions or purpose...
here is the thing, is it wrong if i don't know a lot about anatomy ?,
well in my opinion, it doesn't mean that if you cannot answer your friend's question , u are a loser...
those things are already in your head, you just need to organize them and adjust them in your brain properly...
use keywords, everything you learn are mostly connected to each other...once u know them... you can answer those question in anatomy....
BUT HOW??
draw a complete diagram of head and neck.. or just take a look of them in atlas of anatomy , if you memorize almost everything in words, of course.. you will tend to forget it..so, take a look on the diagram, the structure, the connections, the place... anything..... that is included in those diagram...
try to apply it, i mean... relate them with each other...
then u will remember...
i know u can do it , Afifah, u are born with intelligence... u are smart.. u can learn in smart way... u don't have to imitate the way your friends study.. they memorize almost all of them,.. there is no use in memorizing only, if you don't know the exact function and location of the structure and make Netter's as your best friend from now on....
but,what if the time is not enough? , i only have a week...to be frank, i already freak out..
don't worry, just try your best... pray to Allah swt always for its guidance and peacefulness...
don't lose hope on yourself.. Allah swt are always with you...you are smart , remember that!.. you can do anything better than everyone else... and don't ever try to look down to yourself.. be confident, remember that night? when you called abah for help? abah said just be confident and answer all of those question confidently ( belasah je )... look on you fourth block result, it is better than those who try to memorize the facts word by word...
thanks.. insya Allah, i will try my best... :)
p/s : these are the 'suara hati' that speaks to me when i am down... yezza AFIFAH, you can do it..GO FOR IT!!
honestly, i would prefer to study in purpose of i want to know, and not because of exams...
i am not good with memorizing facts, but i am really good memorizing diagrams....
it is true, i am good with teeth.. its anatomy, but i am not good in anatomy of the head and neck... it sucks...
duh... i love to be enlighten... not to be force to memorize things without functions or purpose...
here is the thing, is it wrong if i don't know a lot about anatomy ?,
well in my opinion, it doesn't mean that if you cannot answer your friend's question , u are a loser...
those things are already in your head, you just need to organize them and adjust them in your brain properly...
use keywords, everything you learn are mostly connected to each other...once u know them... you can answer those question in anatomy....
BUT HOW??
draw a complete diagram of head and neck.. or just take a look of them in atlas of anatomy , if you memorize almost everything in words, of course.. you will tend to forget it..so, take a look on the diagram, the structure, the connections, the place... anything..... that is included in those diagram...
try to apply it, i mean... relate them with each other...
then u will remember...
i know u can do it , Afifah, u are born with intelligence... u are smart.. u can learn in smart way... u don't have to imitate the way your friends study.. they memorize almost all of them,.. there is no use in memorizing only, if you don't know the exact function and location of the structure and make Netter's as your best friend from now on....
but,what if the time is not enough? , i only have a week...to be frank, i already freak out..
don't worry, just try your best... pray to Allah swt always for its guidance and peacefulness...
don't lose hope on yourself.. Allah swt are always with you...you are smart , remember that!.. you can do anything better than everyone else... and don't ever try to look down to yourself.. be confident, remember that night? when you called abah for help? abah said just be confident and answer all of those question confidently ( belasah je )... look on you fourth block result, it is better than those who try to memorize the facts word by word...
thanks.. insya Allah, i will try my best... :)
p/s : these are the 'suara hati' that speaks to me when i am down... yezza AFIFAH, you can do it..GO FOR IT!!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
sakit gigi
penangan dr santosh semalam, smpai hari ni, ketatkan besi braces, sampai x leh tido semalam, rasa macam nak cabut semua gigi and pakai dentures saja..
sakit.....slow pain, create alertness..
slow pain is from the C fibers and goes via the spinoreticular tract, it synapes in lamella I and II, and relay at the thalamus and finally to the cortex...
since it is reticular, so it really create alertness, that is why when we have stomach ache,or toothache, we can't sleep at all during the night..
it is just the SLOW PAIN.... this is sooo not good, iam sooo NERD...!!
different from the fast pain, it will dissappear within few minutes... but slow pain lasts longer than that...
i am hungry... i want some porridge.. but it does not exist here!!. :(
sakit.....slow pain, create alertness..
slow pain is from the C fibers and goes via the spinoreticular tract, it synapes in lamella I and II, and relay at the thalamus and finally to the cortex...
since it is reticular, so it really create alertness, that is why when we have stomach ache,or toothache, we can't sleep at all during the night..
it is just the SLOW PAIN.... this is sooo not good, iam sooo NERD...!!
different from the fast pain, it will dissappear within few minutes... but slow pain lasts longer than that...
i am hungry... i want some porridge.. but it does not exist here!!. :(
Monday, July 4, 2011
saya comel atau cute?
erm, post nih bukannya nak memuji or angkat bakul sendiri, tapi luahan perasaan je...
sejak2 tukar facebook profile pic ngan gmbr biskut marie nih, asyik kena puji comel laa apelaa....
JGL pun cakap cute.... (hehe, suka sbnrnya)
adoyai, saya ni sbnrnya pemalu or shy2 cat sikit orangnya, so, kalau kena puji, kembang laa lepas tu.. hehe...
now it makes me feels floating in the air for a while.. :P...
ramai gak org tegur...
kuku saya gi manicure? memang x laa... keluar bilik pun malas,... x caya pi tanya JGL...
erm, apa2 pun terima kasih sebab puji, biskut marie penyelamat gmbr, kalau x, nmpaklaa mata sembap kat belakang tu...
:D... LOL..
p/s = terasa debaran nak gi jumpa Dr Santosh, abeslaa kena marah ngan dia hari ni...
sejak2 tukar facebook profile pic ngan gmbr biskut marie nih, asyik kena puji comel laa apelaa....
JGL pun cakap cute.... (hehe, suka sbnrnya)
adoyai, saya ni sbnrnya pemalu or shy2 cat sikit orangnya, so, kalau kena puji, kembang laa lepas tu.. hehe...
now it makes me feels floating in the air for a while.. :P...
ramai gak org tegur...
kuku saya gi manicure? memang x laa... keluar bilik pun malas,... x caya pi tanya JGL...
erm, apa2 pun terima kasih sebab puji, biskut marie penyelamat gmbr, kalau x, nmpaklaa mata sembap kat belakang tu...
:D... LOL..
p/s = terasa debaran nak gi jumpa Dr Santosh, abeslaa kena marah ngan dia hari ni...
dentist..
semalam pergi antar mesej kat kak iwanie, tnya dia pasal life as a dentist,...
erm, dia jawab pun macam warm je, (hehe, saya sgt suka kat dia),
dia cakap lebih kurang cmni,...
alhamdulillah. best sy suka. working hour 8-5pm. but sometime if ada jadual on call.then kena standby kat rumah.. but jarang juga ada on call, in case kalau dpt case yg berkaitan head n neck baru diorg kol sy keja kat hospital kuala kangsar. gaji boleh tahan. basic dlm rm 2300 include dgn elaun +++ total dlm rm3400 setelah tolak kwsp... kalau nak smbung specialist slalu nya second year dah boleh amik..but kena amik few examinations n depends on awak nak amik course ape
owh ye ke? welcome to the family dentistry sgt best enjoy the learning sometime leaning might be challenging, no worries, lg byk belaja lg seronok nak buat .
waaa, kerja cam best je kan, tapi time on call tu laa yg x berapa nak seronok.... tp xapa.. harhar...
gaji pun boleh tahan jugak sebenarnya, alaa cukuplaa utk cm saya nih,... x kaya pun x pe, cara kak iwanie ckp cm best je... x apa, pembakar semangat!!..
cayalaaa kak iwanie dahlaa cantik,.. kalau saya jadi patient, mesti slalu nak pergi hospital... :D
erm, dia jawab pun macam warm je, (hehe, saya sgt suka kat dia),
dia cakap lebih kurang cmni,...
alhamdulillah. best sy suka. working hour 8-5pm. but sometime if ada jadual on call.then kena standby kat rumah.. but jarang juga ada on call, in case kalau dpt case yg berkaitan head n neck baru diorg kol sy keja kat hospital kuala kangsar. gaji boleh tahan. basic dlm rm 2300 include dgn elaun +++ total dlm rm3400 setelah tolak kwsp... kalau nak smbung specialist slalu nya second year dah boleh amik..but kena amik few examinations n depends on awak nak amik course ape
owh ye ke? welcome to the family dentistry sgt best enjoy the learning sometime leaning might be challenging, no worries, lg byk belaja lg seronok nak buat .
waaa, kerja cam best je kan, tapi time on call tu laa yg x berapa nak seronok.... tp xapa.. harhar...
gaji pun boleh tahan jugak sebenarnya, alaa cukuplaa utk cm saya nih,... x kaya pun x pe, cara kak iwanie ckp cm best je... x apa, pembakar semangat!!..
cayalaaa kak iwanie dahlaa cantik,.. kalau saya jadi patient, mesti slalu nak pergi hospital... :D
Sunday, July 3, 2011
mood... oldies... :D
reminds me of the times in car, when abah loves to sing those oldies song... :)
this is one of it,...
this is one of it,...
study.... ZzzzZZZzZzZZzzz
feel so sleepy when i study, is it because of the subject or is it just myself being such a sleepyhead all the time???
the ink already decreasing to the hazardous line, which means i really have to go out tomorrow to buy some pens and paper!!... isk isk.... feel so.....(MALAS)......
and tomorrow the subject is anatomy ( I AM A DEAD MEAT!!!).. the most least 'like' subject....ughhh...
erm, i don't know where my JGL has disappear just now...i don't know where he go..
okay , forget about him,.
i revised physiology block 1 = kind of boring.
but i found an interesting stuff about muscle, RIGOR MORTIS...Ooouuuu!! ( sound scary rite?) :P
okay not everyone know about rigor mortis but,.. let me explain,
rigor mortis is a stiffness of skeletal muscle due to the lack of ATP,(ATP = sort of energy producing molecule)
when ATP is not there, there will be no detachment of myosin head from the actin binding site,...
so, the muscle become stiff,
hence ATP is always produced by our body, so, us who are still alive does not need to worry about that,...
rigor mortis occur to a person who is dead....
it begins several hours after death,..and it is complete after 12 hours,..
well, rigor mortis also being used as to indicate the time of death..
in CSI, forensics always check and said, he died about 3/ 4 hours ago, bla bla bla...
hahahaha, it's cool right,
hmm to the people who do not think it is coooool...you can call me NERD.
hahahaha.. ...
okay bye2.. see you MMMMUUUAAHHHXXX... XOXO..
the ink already decreasing to the hazardous line, which means i really have to go out tomorrow to buy some pens and paper!!... isk isk.... feel so.....(MALAS)......
and tomorrow the subject is anatomy ( I AM A DEAD MEAT!!!).. the most least 'like' subject....ughhh...
erm, i don't know where my JGL has disappear just now...i don't know where he go..
okay , forget about him,.
i revised physiology block 1 = kind of boring.
but i found an interesting stuff about muscle, RIGOR MORTIS...Ooouuuu!! ( sound scary rite?) :P
okay not everyone know about rigor mortis but,.. let me explain,
rigor mortis is a stiffness of skeletal muscle due to the lack of ATP,(ATP = sort of energy producing molecule)
when ATP is not there, there will be no detachment of myosin head from the actin binding site,...
so, the muscle become stiff,
hence ATP is always produced by our body, so, us who are still alive does not need to worry about that,...
rigor mortis occur to a person who is dead....
it begins several hours after death,..and it is complete after 12 hours,..
well, rigor mortis also being used as to indicate the time of death..
in CSI, forensics always check and said, he died about 3/ 4 hours ago, bla bla bla...
hahahaha, it's cool right,
hmm to the people who do not think it is coooool...you can call me NERD.
hahahaha.. ...
okay bye2.. see you MMMMUUUAAHHHXXX... XOXO..
Friday, July 1, 2011
ugh...
my friends always said to me, pah, you look handsome instead of beautiful, ...
my first reaction, oh ? then , WHAT?
and fyi my thyroid angle is quite obvious( maybe because i am too skinny :P) ... now i am started to believe that i am a boy..a weirdo..
but i am a girl...
and when your friends said that you not attractive, as a girl i feel sad of myself..
but, they who claims that i am not attractive are not that DROP DEAD GORGEOUS..so..
hahahaaAHHAHA..
btw, as the saying goes,
kita mungkin tidak cantik di mata manusia tetapi cantik di sisi Allah SWT,
that is more important right?.. :)
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
lepas paper DADH
can u imagine how tired i was today? hari ni dgn rasa loya and pening, till now pun boleh rasa berat kepala, i think i need more rest.. :(
malam nih sepatutnya dah nak kena start study for the first block, pfft,.. because i am not well, semuanya tergendala. :(... tp sekarang, teringin pulak nak makan ais krim... kalaulaa ada motor, boleh je terus gi baskin robbin.. bestnya..,...
tapi kena semangat laa sekarang nih, so that the headache does'nt control me.... if not i'll be lying in bed all the time..
drink a lot of water but then toilet toilet toilet toilet..... :P
malam nih sepatutnya dah nak kena start study for the first block, pfft,.. because i am not well, semuanya tergendala. :(... tp sekarang, teringin pulak nak makan ais krim... kalaulaa ada motor, boleh je terus gi baskin robbin.. bestnya..,...
tapi kena semangat laa sekarang nih, so that the headache does'nt control me.... if not i'll be lying in bed all the time..
drink a lot of water but then toilet toilet toilet toilet..... :P
Monday, June 27, 2011
let's hijrah...
i don't know why but i had a bad feeling about myself, i think i have committed lots of sin.really have to go back to the right path,.. please guide me my Lord...
feeling so weak and hungry, i think i should stop eating for a while and start fasting..
my schedule are really bad, sleep at 3 pm,and in the evening, ya Allah, this is so not good for myself...
really have to correct my biological clock from now on and arrange my studies properly..
and now i am having a big headache, really want to bang my head to the wall... :D..
okay,.. lets start working, dental anatomy and physiology paper is coming this wednesday...
feeling so weak and hungry, i think i should stop eating for a while and start fasting..
my schedule are really bad, sleep at 3 pm,and in the evening, ya Allah, this is so not good for myself...
really have to correct my biological clock from now on and arrange my studies properly..
and now i am having a big headache, really want to bang my head to the wall... :D..
okay,.. lets start working, dental anatomy and physiology paper is coming this wednesday...
Saturday, June 25, 2011
outlandish.. :)
i really love music,one of my favorite group singer is outlandish.....so , i google...and found a little bit information about them in wikipedia... :D
Outlandish is a multi-award winning hip-hop group based in Denmark. Formed in 1997, it consists of Isam Bachiri (born in Denmark and of Moroccan background), Waqas Ali Qadri (born in Denmark and of Pakistani background), and Lenny Martinez (born in Honduras and is of Cuban and Honduran descent). All three members are devoutly religious, Isam and Waqas being Muslims, and Lenny being Catholic. The band members live in Brøndby Strand.
most of their songs have their own meanings which requires us to think...cool right??.. that is what i feel about Outlandish..
isam bachiri's voice is awesome!!
and one of the songs that i like from them is FEELS LIKE SAVING THE WORLD,cause it is catchy.. :)
Outlandish is a multi-award winning hip-hop group based in Denmark. Formed in 1997, it consists of Isam Bachiri (born in Denmark and of Moroccan background), Waqas Ali Qadri (born in Denmark and of Pakistani background), and Lenny Martinez (born in Honduras and is of Cuban and Honduran descent). All three members are devoutly religious, Isam and Waqas being Muslims, and Lenny being Catholic. The band members live in Brøndby Strand.
most of their songs have their own meanings which requires us to think...cool right??.. that is what i feel about Outlandish..
isam bachiri's voice is awesome!!
and one of the songs that i like from them is FEELS LIKE SAVING THE WORLD,cause it is catchy.. :)
guilty...
i am happy today, quite okay, the exam paper for physiology is easy, :D, both objective and essay paper, that's the big reason ,why i can't stop smiling today...
then i went to scirocco for lunch, i ate a creamy chicken spaghetti, burp.. alhamdulillah.. :), but on the way back to IH (my hostel) i stop by the akka sonia shop to buy a tumbler, then i saw a small thin cat..
she is so thin and weak and she sit beside my feet and start 'meowing', i become numb, i can feel how lonely and hungry she is, i want to take her home if i could, but the problem is the hostel, i am not allowed to bring any kind of pet into the hostel
i felt so guilty leaving her alone... sigh...
i think the best thing that i can do is feed her,... :)
p/s : please ignore the previous post about emo and upset... it is so childish..
then i went to scirocco for lunch, i ate a creamy chicken spaghetti, burp.. alhamdulillah.. :), but on the way back to IH (my hostel) i stop by the akka sonia shop to buy a tumbler, then i saw a small thin cat..
she is so thin and weak and she sit beside my feet and start 'meowing', i become numb, i can feel how lonely and hungry she is, i want to take her home if i could, but the problem is the hostel, i am not allowed to bring any kind of pet into the hostel
i felt so guilty leaving her alone... sigh...
i think the best thing that i can do is feed her,... :)
p/s : please ignore the previous post about emo and upset... it is so childish..
Friday, June 24, 2011
upset,emo
but the purpose of doing this blog is to let them know how i was doing here, whether i am okay or not,...
now, i do cried in front of my laptop many times,...
sometimes i do feel that i want to choke myself to death..
i am not happy, yes i am not happy with myself,
i don't know why....
my hands are shaking, tomorrow i have exams,
just want to let them know about the paper for tomorrow,
just want to let them know, about the anatomy paper yesterday
that's all... :(
healing by sami yusuf
currently listening to sami yusuf, healing,
it really make myself calm, and his voice is amazingly beautiful, make me want to cry everytime i listen to this song, and i really love the outro part,
the lyrics
it really make myself calm, and his voice is amazingly beautiful, make me want to cry everytime i listen to this song, and i really love the outro part,
the lyrics
It's so hard to explain
What I'm feeling
But I guess it's ok
Cause I'll keep believing
There's something deep inside
Something that's calling
It's calling you and I
It's taking us up high
What I'm feeling
But I guess it's ok
Cause I'll keep believing
There's something deep inside
Something that's calling
It's calling you and I
It's taking us up high
CHORUS:
Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
A smile can change a life let's start believing
And feeling, let's start healing
Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
A smile can change a life let's start believing
And feeling, let's start healing
VERSE 2:
Heal and you will be healing
Break every border
Give and you will receive
It's Nature's order
There is a hidden force
Pulling us closer
It's pulling you and I
It's pulling us up high
Heal and you will be healing
Break every border
Give and you will receive
It's Nature's order
There is a hidden force
Pulling us closer
It's pulling you and I
It's pulling us up high
CHORUS:
Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
A Smile can change a life let's start believing
And feeling, let's start healing
Healing, a simple act of kindness brings such meaning
A Smile can change a life let's start believing
And feeling, let's start healing
MIDDLE 8:
Hearts in the hand of another heart and in God's hand are all hearts
An eye takes care of another eye and from God's eye nothing hides
Seek only to give and you'll receive
So, heal and you will be healed
Hearts in the hand of another heart and in God's hand are all hearts
An eye takes care of another eye and from God's eye nothing hides
Seek only to give and you'll receive
So, heal and you will be healed
OUTRO (x2):
قلب بين يدي قلب و بيد الله كل قلب
عين ترعى عينا، وعين الله ترعى
كلمة طيبة صدقة
تبسمك لأخيك صدقه
كل معروف صدقة
اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً
قلب بين يدي قلب و بيد الله كل قلب
عين ترعى عينا، وعين الله ترعى
كلمة طيبة صدقة
تبسمك لأخيك صدقه
كل معروف صدقة
اللهم اشف شفاءً لا يغادر سقماً
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